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Summer Break Is Killing Me

I am lethargic at best, wiped, totally beyond thinking
My sleep patterns are not evenly zigzagged
Up and down, my eyes are open every two hours
Not a nightmare or stress; I do not know what it is
I cannot get out of bed today
Good thing I do not have to
I am glad it is summer break

yet….
summer break is killing me
I need a daily purpose, the only thing I have going is 
I have to feed the cat.
That was done four hours ago
My hair needs cut and dyed. 
I have been saying that for a week now.
I should bathe.  If I had one bit of energy I might.
There is nothing here right now, no one is home.
I doubt there is a person in this shell.
I am exhausted; is it lack of sleep or lack of purpose?
Does it matter?

Copyright © Caren Krutsinger | Year Posted 2021

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Sara Kendrick Date: 7/18/2021 3:15:00 AM Whoa!! Reads like a major problem is going on with you. Have you had COVID19? Is it depression? Is it a hormonal change you know? I hope just a work and not really what is happening. Of course, summer can zap one's energy even if the home is air conditioned. It is just something about the humidity I guess. Sara Login to Reply Caren Krutsinger Date: 7/18/2021 6:41:00 AM I am pretty sure it is withdrawal from school, and feeling like I have accomplished absolutely nothing since school got out. I need a purpose every day, and I am running out of ideas for canvases. I need a new hobby actually. Sara Kendrick Date: 7/18/2021 3:19:00 AM Our great granddaughter(not our blood kin child though) has just been diagnosed with hand, foot and mouth disease. I had never heard of it until a few years ago and this is the first time I had seen it. She was just starting to break out and from pictures on the internet it can get much worse. You could have some kind of new something floating around. Like Kim says, some early morning sunlight can help if it is a Vitamin D deficiency or SAD. Sunlight and a little outdoor exercise can work wonders.Sara

Kim Rodrigues Date: 7/17/2021 1:47:00 PM Get out in the sunshine! Feel better! Login to Reply Caren Krutsinger Date: 7/18/2021 6:41:00 AM I should get out there and stay out there all day!

Mystic Rose Rose Date: 7/17/2021 12:16:00 PM No dear heart maybe this is your time to recuperate take al the time you need to get things done. Lovely poem, full of heart and understanding xo Login to Reply Caren Krutsinger Date: 7/18/2021 6:41:00 AM Thank you Mystic Rose Rose

L Milton Hankins Date: 7/17/2021 8:58:00 AM Oh, trust me, it matters, Caren. Pick up that brush! Spend an hour in the flower garden. Oh, so many things to do...and all too quickly you will be back in school. Login to Reply Caren Krutsinger Date: 7/18/2021 6:42:00 AM I need to run out there and garden right now. I might do that!