Suicide Note

If I should die before I wake And this be the last breathe I take. Just know this was a decision that I made. That I was a soul that just couldn't be saved. And try as might to take the blame, It just isn't your fault. You gave birth to me , But you didn't breed these anxieties. And you put the voices in my head. And you didn't know I cried myself to bed. If I die and you feel that it is before my time. Just know I was suffering but now I'm fine. I struggled with the decision to go or to stay. I know you're probably angry with me and that's okay. I know you think I'm selfish for ending my life this way. If I should die before I wake I pray the Lord my soul to take... That he alone will have mercy and grace, To know how hard of a decision it was on me. And the scars on my lifeless body will remain Not as who I was but of who I became. Do not cover them with make up Because I am unashamed. I was hurting and they are symbolic of my pain. If I should die today...