Suicide Note
If I should die before I wake
And this be the last breathe I take.
Just know this was a decision that I made.
That I was a soul that just couldn't be saved.
And try as might to take the blame,
It just isn't your fault.
You gave birth to me ,
But you didn't breed these anxieties.
And you put the voices in my head.
And you didn't know I cried myself to bed.
If I die and you feel that it is before my time.
Just know I was suffering but now I'm fine.
I struggled with the decision to go or to stay.
I know you're probably angry with me and that's okay.
I know you think I'm selfish for ending my life this way.
If I should die before I wake
I pray the Lord my soul to take...
That he alone will have mercy and grace,
To know how hard of a decision it was on me.
And the scars on my lifeless body will remain
Not as who I was but of who I became.
Do not cover them with make up
Because I am unashamed.
I was hurting and they are symbolic of my pain.
If I should die today...
Copyright © Mari Elisha Williams | Year Posted 2016
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