Suicide Letter

No one is happy all of the time 
But for me I can never find happiness 
And every day is a struggle for survival 
Fill with pain and hurt and loneliness. 

I try to find understanding in the world 
But there are no time outs for my situations 
And every second that goes by 
My life is sinking deeper in seclusion 

Then one day the sun shine’s on me 
And the hope of love and happiness came 
And a bright future seems reachable 
But to that sunshine my love was just a game 

And my heart become over ridden with pain 
As my soul accepts the suffering that arrive 
And no matter how hard I try to fight it 
My mind is saying to me " take your own life 

For love is a powerful universal emotion 
That every one of us so dearly seeks 
And it can make our life whole and complete 
And when we don’t get it our will to survive gets weak 

Trying to live with depression was hard enough 
But now knowing I found love that I couldn’t save 
It’s just more than I can take right now 
And the grim reaper keeps calling me to the grave 

Yes I do have the love of all my family 
But family love is a complexly different love 
It could never protect you with any comfort 
When you are hurt by the girl you dreamt of 

And just the though of some one else holding her 
When she was the one to be your future wife 
I just could not take the pain and suffering 
So please forgive me god as I plan to take my life 

People will say what a fool he was to do that 
No woman is worth for you to die for 
But it’s easy to say that because they don’t know 
How much I really really truly loved her 

Suicide thoughts are buried deep into my mind 
And every day is coming closer to the end 
And I giving in for my mind now controls me 
Very soon it will be fulfill, but no one knows when

Copyright © Kasim Ishmael | Year Posted 2014

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