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She wanted love that he wouldn’t give She cried and thought “How can I live?” There was a sullen boy who believed “If I’m gone others will be relieved.” He feels not good enough To much pain and other stuff Then the old man alone in a chair sad blue eyes, grey hair thinking “No one cares.” Rocking, rocking, by the bed, hand full of pills blue and red. A father crying silently listening to an old tune A cigar and Jack Daniels under a full moon He will be long gone before it reaches noon. She who used to be a him Pretty in her own way Carl needed to become Kim Disowned and rejected by mommy and daddy Jim Later she’ll be at the end of her rope attached to a tree limb A dead girl with a needle in her arm Was so innocent once She grew up on a farm but the simple life somehow lost it’s charm Each in their own way arrived at this place Wanting to disappear without a trace Time took its toll lonely occupies this space. A lie without an answer different stories to trace. A sad secret behind every face.

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Date: 4/18/2021 3:24:00 PM
Hard-hitting. A cacophony of different folks, all with their own reasons, to leave this world behind ... read it twice for it to sink in. The most shocking suicide to come to anyone that I knew (even if only slightly) was a co-worker when I worked at the baseball stadium. He was the team's mascot. Only saw him a couple times outside the suit, but he was a nice kid ... only 18. One day he was asked to sing the National Anthem, and his voice was nearly angelic (if that isn't strange to say).
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Timothy Hicks
Date: 4/18/2021 3:25:00 PM
...but I found out later that he took his own life. Don't know the reason.
Date: 4/3/2021 1:29:00 PM
I am glad you weaved many stories together.Fine stitching...As you deal with a subject matter people try to scroll pass in Poetry. I particulary loved verse 5 "She who wanted to be a him". This is simply trailblazing, brave poetry
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 4/4/2021 6:32:00 AM
Thanks Michael. I hope all is well with you. Blessings for Easter.
Date: 2/14/2021 3:39:00 PM
normally I would have not read this title for it's one subject I sadly avoid..but haunting & beautifully written...a fav
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 2/14/2021 4:42:00 PM
Thanks Nora, what a thoughtful response.
Date: 1/31/2021 10:16:00 AM
I too wrote on same topic in a different way."power of thoughts, depression suicide". A bit of positive thinking goes a long way in making life happy. Great write which many can relate to.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 2/14/2021 4:42:00 PM
Thanks so much Rama.
Date: 12/30/2020 3:21:00 PM
Hello Richard … a great insight to situations where the mind becomes confused into a false belief they are unworthy and there in no way out - heartbreaking Richard - Lindsay
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 2/14/2021 4:43:00 PM
Thanks Lindsay.
Date: 12/29/2020 3:07:00 PM
:( ...I see these faces sometimes; walking down the street, sitting in the park. Do not even know their names... but the pain screams behind their eyes. May they find peace. And you my friend.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/30/2020 6:58:00 AM
I do hope so. Have a wonderful New Year Flo. Hugs Rick.
Date: 12/29/2020 11:38:00 AM
Powerful poetry, Richard!! Your pen is muse potent as always, dear friend. Love and happy holidays.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/30/2020 6:58:00 AM
As always, you are kind.
Date: 12/24/2020 2:10:00 PM
Wow Richard, parents did not accept his new style of living for Carl needed to become Kim! Your last verse tells the whole story - I enjoy your poetry my friend, I enjoy a read immensely if I can grasp it from the very beginning. So well penned. Blessings, Jennifer.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/24/2020 11:03:00 PM
Thanks Jennifer. ;0)
Date: 12/24/2020 7:12:00 AM
Yes, suicide for each person has a different reason but the main reason is the person is depressed and needs help!! Even those who have an accidental overdose are crying out for help. Enjoyed reading your very descriptive, expressive and emotive work. They say that more suicides happen around the Christmas season because it makes it even harder for the depressed. Thanks for the visit to my page. Sara..My biological mother died from suicide she lived at home 2 days before they sought medical ....
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/24/2020 10:07:00 AM
So sorry to hear that Sara. Such an awful thing when time is robbed from you. Hugs Rick.
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Sara Kendrick
Date: 12/24/2020 7:13:00 AM
attention. Then she lived 4 more days at the hospital before she passed on. The people who I have talked to said it was one horrible death. She took some pills which contained mercury and cyanide. Sara
Date: 12/23/2020 6:28:00 AM
A powerful write Rick on a subject that takes and affects so many lives. Great poem. Hugs
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/23/2020 6:31:00 AM
Thanks Cecilia, hugs Rick.
Date: 12/21/2020 6:31:00 PM
This is so sad, and yes suicidal keeps climbing higher every year. It is very sad. Great poem, Richard, and wishing you a safe Merry Christmas :)
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/22/2020 5:58:00 AM
Thanks Akkina. It is indeed a great sadness.
Date: 12/21/2020 12:07:00 PM
- I often make changes after the post ... a writing that leaves deep traces, Richard :) - Have a wonderful Christmas ... and a virus-free new year 2021 :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/22/2020 5:59:00 AM
Sounds good, Merry Christmas to you too Ann-Lise.
Date: 12/20/2020 3:21:00 PM
BTW I understand Pangie's outcry below. Suicides are WAY up thanks to 2020, losses of business, etc. which is something not even being looked at by "experts" But I will not go blathering on with my controversial ideas that are taken as loony by most people today. I also have known people who took their lives for the exact reasons you mention in your poem. My husband considered it once (bad childhood resulting in anxiety, etc) He's feeling depressed again for what govts. are doing to the world.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/22/2020 6:02:00 AM
So sorry your husband isn’t doing well. I can relate to the bad childhood experience. These are indeed strange times and are having there toll on people. Hugs Rick.
Date: 12/20/2020 3:10:00 PM
this is so sad and true, Richard. So many lives going on in a silent little tragedy that only those souls can truly know. I do not believe God punishes people who are so sad that they take their lives. I often wonder if there is reincarnation and if they will be allowed to live a different life "next time." Who can know what it all means. but I know it has to means SOMETHING, and we are all here to learn both joy and pain to be able to relate to all humankind. GREAT POEM
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/22/2020 6:08:00 AM
I too do not believe that God punishes those poor souls that choose to end their lives.
Date: 12/19/2020 7:16:00 PM
Life is Precious- no matter the situation. Your thoughts touch my heart so deeply. So many are in need of prayers. This is tender, moving and heartbreaking- all at the same time. ~ Brandy
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/19/2020 10:09:00 PM
Sadly it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. In the end we are all in need of connection and wanting to belong. Thanks for such a sensitive response Brandy.
Date: 12/19/2020 4:49:00 PM
Nice expose of the 'story inside the story,' Richard. Rejection certainly has severe consequences. Here's to acceptance of each other's uniqueness. As they say: 'Judge not, that ye not be judged.' ~ Life and Light, Gershon
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/19/2020 4:59:00 PM
Thanks Gershon, I appreciate your visit.
Date: 12/19/2020 2:31:00 PM
I guess people resort to suicide for a wide range of reasons. So sad, but I know what it's like to want to "disappear." A very beautifully written poem, Richard. Best wishes for the holidays, Carolyn
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/19/2020 4:31:00 PM
Thank you Carolyn, I appreciate the visit.
Date: 12/18/2020 11:15:00 AM
Oh Richard, if only I had a cup of hope for each one of these , but sometimes they are beyond hope, thank you for sharing such a sensitive write, we all need to do our part and reach out to those who need us, especially this year. Merry Christmas dear poet.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/19/2020 5:41:00 AM
Thanks Vienna, I hope you have a meaningful Christmas. Hugs Rick.
Date: 12/17/2020 10:24:00 PM
Oh! This is sad how you point out the different reasons why many take away their own lives, maybe true for many, wish people understood that life is a gift of God..
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/18/2020 6:15:00 AM
It is far more complicated than I can express in a few stanzas. I think there is an epidemic of loneliness. People are in desperate need of connection. Thanks for your visit.
Date: 12/16/2020 7:13:00 PM
Yes Richard, doctors are concerned, in my state, suicides are up by 5,000 this year. .worse parents beating up on chiidren ending up in ER! Add...many cannot bear this lockdown will need mental health care! I find it sinful, and totalitarian to lock people up People Worse..of all look down their arrogant noses at suicide. Cruel, very. We are poets not qualified Psychoanalysts . Pangie xx
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/22/2020 6:06:00 AM
In coming back to read your response with a fresh mind, I’m surprised by what I gleaned from it. This is a heart felt response and I apologize for my reaction. I don’t feel however that most people look down their noses at suicide, I believe they feel the sorrow and pain associated with it. Hugs Rick.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/17/2020 7:22:00 AM
I’m surprised that’s what you gleaned from this piece. I was not aware there were any aspects of humanity that a poet could not consider.
Date: 12/15/2020 9:18:00 PM
A very emotional poem on a subject that needs much more attention. The saddest thing for me is the upheaval left behind for family and friends to try and make sense of. Good poem.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/17/2020 7:24:00 AM
Yes that is a sad reality. I feel so bad for people who come to the point that to continue living is more painful than ending their lives. Thanks for visiting.
Date: 12/15/2020 7:59:00 AM
A beautiful and empathetic rendering Richard, lovely done. mo hugs
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/15/2020 12:25:00 PM
Thanks Maureen.
Date: 12/15/2020 7:46:00 AM
WoW! Richard, You have penned powerful, moving, and heartfelt write on such a difficult topic. We need to talk about this more to gain understanding to help folk that feels like this.Thanks for penning a write on a sensitive issue- Alexis
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/15/2020 12:26:00 PM
Much appreciated Alexis. Blessings Rick.
Date: 12/15/2020 7:39:00 AM
- When someone chooses to take their own life ... they really are far down ... a powerful poem, Richard - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/15/2020 12:27:00 PM
Thanks Anne Lise. Give it another read. I made some changes.
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Anne-Lise Andresen
Date: 12/15/2020 7:40:00 AM
... no light in the tunnel

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