Suffering Unlawful Intrusion

I awake still down wishing I never woke Speaking in questions leading to answers I wish I never spoke I don't know how or why I keep on fighting My only true outlet is on the paper in which I am writing Speaking to myself wondering when it will all go away All I ever wanted was to awake feeling secure today Instead I wish that I had never awoke at all Why do I repeatedly awake Just to fall Some day's I don't want to walk, talk, feel or see I don't want to wake up some day's still being me I wish I wish I wish I could just be free From all of those who misjudge, abuse and Isolate me They pick what they love Discarding all that they hate But no one is whole when they strip any single trait How can I be spoken about In manners That destroy my own belief Again I wish I awoke to some sort of relief Just want a career that gives me a purpose on this earth Instead I am feeling useless Awaiting my rebirth My second chance to do it all over and make better choices maybe then I would be free of these inner voices Constantly asking myself if I am sure I want to live and not die Why cant I hear silence that doesn't give me reason to cry I need a life with no outside influence Causing internal confusion I am tired of my inner being suffering unlawful intrusion