Stupid Faith

100 miles It's pretty far Feels like a loss Not far by car But Too far for a rock to toss The deadening silence of your voice Slices to my core, it's a salty wound Made worse by your choice I see your smile everywhere I roam Its sincerity demolishes my pain It convinces me that I'm home Every minute I wish to see it again when it's gone the hurt returns And this feeling grows stronger Feeling my heart, I feel it, it burns Can't take this pain, how much longer? Wish I could present you with a gift Not something to make your heart rift Something like a basket of oranges My love language speaks gifts and time Much different than yours is Like an impossible rhyme Too difficult to have faith for long Everything our so-called god lets go wrong Like a cut rope, tying it back, not as strong That same fear of a loss will continue Throughout the ages How many times do i place my faith in you? I fear ending up just one of your pages How could he allow it to happen? I swear he's terrible Faithfully followed and obeyed To me, he’s horrible Too hard to have faith in my class People say he works in a mysterious way He’s more like a kid with a magnifying glass On an ant that can't run away I may be just sad I may be just mad I may just go back To the day I had You all to myself God gave me that day And you know what they say... It's better to have loved and lost -F*ck that! He's the one that took you away Too hard to find trust in god Even Joseph Smith couldn't erase this heart Like a stranger, you just give a nod I don't know him since he tore us apart I'll probably see you again someday Only when it's my moment to shine Faith is too hard to have today Till then ill sit here and whine