Stuck In Limbo

I don't want a divorce, I don't want our marriage to end. I would love to be by your side, and when the whole world is against me have a place to hide. I desire to see your face every morning when I wake, it hurts me deep inside that I'm away. Not by my choice but because you feel It's best, you don't have the feelings for me that a wife should. I'm not sure if you think you're doing me a favor by separating like this, one things for certain that you both are truly missed. My life is up in the air and when I fall I hope that you'll be there. I know I'm sometimes rough around the edges but that's who I am, committed, loyal but sometimes paranoid of how you do things. Am I to be totally subservient to you if things work out? Or will we both meet half way instead of scream and shout? I wonder at this very moment if you feel anything for me, I know I love you very much and never wanted to leave. Stuck in limbo in every aspect of life. What am I to do, when I still love my beautiful wife?