Struggling With Life

By now my perception, so naive and derisive going beyond intention, should have changed; blemishes spoil this appearance, they are worse than any word said to hurt and humiliate with vengeance: sling no stones, no threats to shield! I got through many hurdles, they posed hard challenges... and struggling with life I can say, " I'm prouder than anybody. " What held me back was constant fear: how painful was to see all disappear! I looked up and saw the grayest clouds, soon it would be raining for eternal, dreary hours; much sadness they brought with their darkness: I couldn't find shelter into anybody's arms! Struggling with life is wrestling with God, it's the hardest fight ever fought; nobody wins and we surely resent defeat: we blame fate and cry out loud... not appreciating what we have freely received, and shunning what's good, we embrace deceit!