Stranger

Deep inside I’m hurting, because I’ve hurt you, feel useless I don’t know what to do. I’m trying to accommodate your every request and respect you, to give your heart a rest. You say you think I want something from you, you’re right I do, and your forgiveness too. I’m not expecting change insight, I don’t want to feel like a failure every night. I know you love me, but holding back, and it’s my fault I know and must stay on track. To be the man you fell in love with, not a stranger in the house, not a mean thug or monster but your spouse. All I ask is not to shut me out, and leave me with doubt. I wish to be close to you, to touch you to hold you, not feel empty with desire when I say adieu. Can you understand me? Am I making sense? Who am I to turn to? To whom do I repent?