Sylvia Coulstock Poet Free verse

Still Here

I wake up,
Feel the heat of your body beside me,
My heart beats 
You are here.
I stir,
Reach out to the warmth
That was you
Your smell lingers ,
Coffee and toast fill the air.
My heart beats
You are here.

I open my eyes ,
Slide my hand into a new coldness.
Wet on my pillow,
Screams from my mind,
Remembering-you are gone.
I am still here.
I turn my face from the day
Wrapped in shrouds,
Just waiting for someone
To nail down the lid.
Why should my heart beat? 
Without you 
I don’t feel-here.

I am aroused, 
Feel a force from within breaking free.
I beat the air with my fists.
Pound out my hurt, 
Curse your name
You- you- oh why why
Did you go and leave me 
Still here. 

I awake,
Birds sing. 
It’s a new day.
The empty space beside me now familiar.
You are gone 
Yet once again my heart beats
-Still here-

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Brian Densham July 9, 2018 at 5:08 AM Been doing this a while I see. It hurt, which it was supposed to do. Good capture well expressed. Poetry reaches beyond words. Thanks

Benjamin Joshua Obeng March 22, 2012 at 10:08 PM A very powerful moving piece... I loved the last verse, where you move on... good job :)

Amanda Andrews November 3, 2010 at 2:06 PM Amazing right Sylvia, very moving! Also thank you for the comments of my poetry, it is all very real i write from real pain that burn inside me..I am making steps to free myself from that pain though. Thanks again take care! -Amanda

October 22, 2010 at 5:46 PM you portrayed the loss very well. Thanks for your very kind comment on my poem, it really means a lot to me... xo

Duncan Chappell October 10, 2010 at 11:55 AM lose but an excellent poem thank you my friend [duncan]

Sara Kendrick October 1, 2010 at 12:12 PM Very expressive of love loss..Time heals but during the healiing the pain is bad..Keep the creative pen flowing..Thanks for stopping by and commenting on my MRI poem..I had to go to one that was called an open MRI but they put these blanket on me and fastened it up and it felt like I was suffocating..They used a lighter blanket and that helped..I made it through it but it was not fun..Sara

Jayne Eggins October 1, 2010 at 5:54 AM Wonderful free verse Sylvia Caongratulations on having your poetry featured this week love Jayne

Jayne Eggins October 1, 2010 at 5:54 AM Congratulations too lol smile

Skat A September 29, 2010 at 8:19 AM SYLVIA, CoNGRATULATIoNS oN HAVING YoUR PoEM FEATURED THIS WEEK*luv~SKAT

Andrea Dietrich September 27, 2010 at 8:47 PM A powerful poem from you, June. Showing a lot of grief! I hpoe it's not true for you. And I hope I can remember you are June. Why don't you put that as your name instead of Sylvia then? Nice meeting you. LUv, Andrea

Poet Destroyer A September 27, 2010 at 5:27 PM deep write Sylvia, congrats on having your poem featured on the soup, it was a pleasure reading today...P.D.

Carol Sunshine Brown September 27, 2010 at 6:28 AM Congratulations on your well deserved poetry being featured this week Sylvia. Love, Carol

Milton Toran September 26, 2010 at 9:03 AM You have a wonderful gift with words. This is a great free verse. The last six lines are the most powerful. No matter how great the pain of sorrow may be, there's always a new day awaiting. Milt

Barbara Gorelick September 25, 2010 at 9:18 PM Hello June..welcome to the soup and thank you for your comment on my poem... This is an emotional write...Im sorry for your loss..Your still here and life goes on. Please look at the contest page and enter my contest about the heavens..plunge right in and have fun...thats the most important thing..enjoy...BG

Carolyn Devonshire September 23, 2010 at 6:20 PM June, I think you and I both understand the feeling of loss and loneliness as you mentioned in your comment on my poem. I lost my husband when I was 24 and there are still times I feel his presence. Thank you for sharing this write with me. Love, Carolyn

James Fraser September 23, 2010 at 11:28 AM Sad, but in a way endearing June. Live for today and remember him always. A warm welcome to the Soup to you, it's nice to read you >> James :)

Sylvia Coulstock September 23, 2010 at 11:01 AM Thank you all for your encouragement.I love poetry, writing it,and reading others.Iwas a bit apprehensive but you have inspired me to share my words with you.You've welcomed me and I feel honoured to now be a part of all of you.LOVE June

Carol Sunshine Brown September 23, 2010 at 5:21 AM I would like to welcome you to PoetrySoup June. Wishing you the best in your writing endeavors. You can look to the left side of the main page and find lots of information on PoetrySoup including contests by members of PoetrySoup and contests by the PoetrySoup site also which you may enter.If you have questions please feel free to ask anyone here. We are all willing to help and if we don't know the answer we will find someone who does. Love, Carol

Sidney Hall Mad Poet September 22, 2010 at 2:36 PM Love and Love loss life sometimes can be unfair. Love your poem home girl. Welcome to the soup. Sidney

Linda-Marie Sweetheart September 22, 2010 at 12:23 PM Welcome to Poetry Soup.. luv your creative write.. check out the contest scene to enter and good luck with luv...

Doris Culverhouse September 22, 2010 at 11:47 AM so sad...hope you are well and welcome to peotry soup.