Staying In the Struggle

A while back I left meaning At the river bank of seeming And gathered myself to trust Dark and light I learned how to fight By giving my faith to LOVE He took me deep and wide Cleaning all I longed to hide 'Neath the sheath of TRUTH The fire was roaring And I began soaring As the chains of deception were loosed Down, up, over, under The lightening struck and I felt HIS voice THUNDER Shaking the foundation of my soul I yielded to the push and pull Wanting to be wise in spite of being a fool To the world system of structured holes For so long, my eyes were fixed On the laying of the bricks To see how it all works The wrong tends to rise In the systems we devise .....quirks, quirks, and more quirks What on earth made us believe That we could keep what we receive And do whatever it takes to ensure entitlements never leave OUR FILTHY GRUBBY HANDS UGH! I am so tired of the struggle ...I want, I need, I should have, I'm not happy with what I have ...........I should have alllllll I want, when I want it, and ....................GOD, you should want me to have it. There! I said it! So, if I continue with LOVE I get the blessings others aren't aware of Enjoying intimacy so deep my heart swells in capacity Or, I can lay the struggle down And try to keep all the temporal things I have found In the accepted veracity ...of fallen men Yesterday, the answer was clear But today, my friend, I am here In the thick red clay...that clings to my boots Although I walk in peace Matter tries to stick where the Spirit gives release So I can allow enemies to believe they have valuable loot ....I worked hard to gain No...it was given..and I will let it go. Written by Trudy Schrader on 01-22-2019