Stay

As I sat on the ledge looking up to the sky I asked my Father the W's The when's, the what's, the where's, the why's So many places in this world to see So many places I'd rather be Bland, stagnant and repetitious became all to me so boring Knowing there's more to life, I envisioned the dream of me soaring More than half a century spent in time So much more to my life to define Stay? ...Nah, I'm good Stay in this apartment, already been 12 years Done seen it all, the smiles, the laughter, the fears and tears Stay day after day just to see the same face Stay and you can't even get a screen door replaced Only one way entry in the complex, the same way to get out It totally didn't make any sense But now you can access entry through the two holes he made in the fence Stay where there's death in the driveway And the crime rate continues to increase Shots fired didn't even know another man on the ground deceased Stay? ...Nah, I'm good Stay for who? Stay for what? Stay for you? You ain't true Stay with who? Stay with you? The one who didn't know You had the best with me as yo girl, but then you let me go Sorry ain't good enough, dry yo tears, keep yo lies Begging to get me back, can you believe this dude, boy bye! It's over, finished, for we been through Can't drive forward looking through the rearview Stay? ...Nah, I'm good Stay with my children daddy? Well at least I wanted him around APB has anyone seen for their dad was nowhere to be found My children grew up without their dad I guess you can't miss what you never had Nowhere around, no child support to pay Dropped off yo sperm and proudly went on yo way So thankful you fulfilled your purpose, there's nothing left to do I'm not angry, no regrets and still got mad love for you Stay...Nah, we good For the ultimate gift of living on earth Were the child bearing years and me giving birth I am proud and truly grateful for my job that was well done For the last of my 5 kids (which are twins) in August will be twenty-one Should I leave or should I stay? Stay for who? Stay for what? Leave to go where? Leave to do what? Contemplating was never an option The destination was already chosen Thirty days to move out, the steps were already alined Wore God as my glasses on my journey, so never was I blind Smooth transition, smooth transformation One state over to the west is now my new location I like my new city, I like my new place, everyday I wear a smile Stay? ...Yeah, I guess it seems I'll be here for awhile