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Staring Into the Abyss

I have had good counsel from a wonderful therapist.
I had to be suicidal to get on her list.
I waited over a year to see her.
Only managed then because I became suicidal again.

At the start I said "Sure, I've nothing to say."
She nodded wisely, then led the way.
'Till shortly I was effusing about the pain I was withholding.
The poetry was flowing.
We were dancing and stomping.
The words were pouring.

The one thing she could not get me to do,
was express the anger I still have towards you.
Suggested wringing a cloth, or banging a pillow.
Shouting the hurts I suffered while with you.

But I'm not concerned as I've found a weapon.
It is of course Poetrysoup heaven.
Already it has trickled through to the pen.
What a poor example you are among men.

For now it's my counselor I wish to thank.
She has led me gently back from the brink...
of the abyss I was staring into.
From being meek as a lamb, sexless....voiceless.
I'm an emotional lioness, no longer joyless.

I've made her a book of my wee poems.
She thinks I should publish, as if I'm a pro.
Sure, I'm too modest for that...
Or am I?



11/14/2015
STARING INTO THE ABYSS
 Edward Ibeh's contest.

Copyright © Jean Murray | Year Posted 2015

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Edward Ibeh Date: 3/24/2019 7:35:00 AM Congratulations on your well-deserved win in my contest, Jean!:-) Login to Reply Jean Murray Date: 3/24/2019 8:10:00 AM Thank you for the placement Edward. It's one of my first poems and I have that lovely lady to thank for discovering that gift in me.

Becca Teagan Date: 10/28/2017 7:53:00 AM I love that you tell a story about your experience, and how you came to the healing art of poetry; it can indeed be very cathartic, much like wringing that cloth, or banging a pillow, but much more gratifying :) Login to Reply Jean Murray Date: 10/28/2017 8:08:00 AM True and thank you Becca.

Silent One Date: 10/28/2017 5:40:00 AM You are pouring honest emotions onto this poem, which is a reflection of the pain you have suffered and expressing through poetry has helped you get through.. A brilliant piece of poetry Jean.. Login to Reply Jean Murray Date: 10/28/2017 5:51:00 AM Thank you. All it took was a spark. To this day, I write best when expressing emotion of any kind. Anger is a good one....

Lin Lane Date: 11/14/2015 5:29:00 AM Very well expressed, Jean. My pen has been my therapist for almost five years, and it never sends me a bill for services rendered. Login to Reply Jean Murray Date: 11/14/2015 6:05:00 AM Thank you Lin. I agree. We hold the most power to heal ourselves . From within. I consider my poetry a precious gift from Daddy.