Spindleshanks Ain'T No Legend

Spindleshanks Ain't No Legend... But sits here donned in his foreign aged (not so lovely) bag of bones barely functioning surviving, but by skin off his teeth, (which explains dentures) regretting, revisiting, ruminating hellacious bout with anorexia nervosa, approximately five dozen (multiply) orbitz around nearest solar system body agonizing, decrying, lamenting... (slightly "FAKE" dramatics) constant reminder deux skinny legs ineradicable testimony permanent indelible gawky disproportionate ugly physique, (particularly knobby knees and little feet) starvation stunt houses boy on cusp of puberty, wherein naked undeveloped characteristics self cannibalized attaining fullest potential manhood - toothpick legs (hyperbole) laughingstock, thus maintaining shuttered life donning trousers all year long, (albeit not same pair) utterly embarrassed public stares brash teasing comments at mine psychological expense, I grudgingly accept forever incomplete fleshed out body costing purposeless driven life concomitant with absolute zero buddies, re: severe interpersonal collateral/ fallout including missus notwithstanding, this marriage devoid, where emotional, physical, and spiritual intimacy absent drooling enviously, furtively espying healthy youths discovering vis a vis metamorphosis transformation into young adulthood, one kamikaze perilous nearly figurative, asper custom made Benedict Arnold traitor reviling against natural processes sacrificing primate growth, where solitude welcomed i.e. books offered sole soul asylum hatch escape unknowingly triggering seismic repercussions longtime familiarization being quasi mister misanthrope wedded to missus non people person, she frequently exhibits hostile behaviour, which marriage tacitly accepted as passive exit out being under same roof as (long deceased) mama, now nonagenarian papa, whose former livid rage toward only son cooled as deck aides elapsed at lightspeed, thee father/ son relationship less strained versus during formative prepubescent stage, where sinking unwavering, and withdrawing into black hole wrought bereft willpower to remain among the living depriving attainment experiencing joie de vivre at critical chronological juncture, hence mine entire scarred, yet expunging grief via holistic, naturalistic, therapeutic... expressions (exercise, meditation, reading, therapy, writing) allows, enables, and provides modus operandi to alleviate excoriating, lamenting, torturing... irreversible self shortchanged inherent growth.