Special

A simple string of letters, they were the only that I saw. The rest were gone you see, because you knew that you were wrong. The slightest of affection, you felt the need to comfort her. I’ve needed you so badly, I guess it’s what I don’t deserve. You promised it was harmless, that you wouldn’t go and screw her. I never saw it coming, struck me down like stormy weather. So, if it were so harmless, tell me, why delete the others? There’s more to this sad story that I may never uncover. You’d met with her for months, behind my back without a trace. You swore it wasn’t like that, that you’d never seen her face. But then, more hits me hard, there’s clearly so much that I’ve missed. Like when I’d found your past out, and that the two of you have kissed. How can’t you understand why my heart it hurts so bad? Re-read the last few stanzas, and say you don’t know why I’m sad. You said that you were angry, and that was why you did such deeds. But that only makes it worse, I know now what your anger breeds. How am I to heal when all my questions have no answers? You claim that you have none, except that you were never lovers. Why can’t you fill the space for me? Do I not deserve to know? My heart is broke in pieces, as my sadness overflows. There’s obviously more to this, but you won’t spare my mind. I swear I only want to know so we can leave the past behind. I always thought that she was pretty, but I guess that you did too. You promised you would never, that I could put my trust in you. So, whether you admit it, you and I both know there’s more. You withhold so much truth from me, leaving my insides sore. The pit inside my stomach and my heart as it does sink… Has left me feeling vulnerable, and I just can’t seem to think. No matter how much time goes by, the stitches never heal. The vast amount of questions left unanswered is unreal. The slightest of affection, and simple words that you had sent… Has injured my self-worth, it’s all been to my detriment. But why did she deserve to get support that I had begged for? I needed you. I needed you. Guess I’m not special anymore.