Soul Ache

Where are you going to direct me if I'm not with you? What I fear is the root of my most profound agony. I'm scared as I'm always compelled to pursue. I've run out of excuses to be emotional and scary. And on the mantel, candles have been set to provide shade. Overcast our movements with an unfathomable shade of darkness Despite my distress and stiffness, I chose to stay with you, not fade. I cherished the eternal depths of your being a lover and kindness. The throb continues to pound me, and my heart continues to race. When we're not together, I feel an emptiness in my heart. My wish is that we should have parted way before we embrace.  It's been ages since I've felt this thoughtful zest. The utter denigration of memories  To find an aspiration where none is apparent. Several moral tales emerge from exploited reveries. My merit is similar to that of a sacrificial victim pigeon, errant.  Any rose petals could have fallen to the floor in that corner. Spread similar to a river, elaborate on flows. Giggles are alive and well, bringing some much-needed light warner. Rather than flowers, thorns sprouted from the rose. My heart was tearing itself apart as I screamed in agony. In my heart, there is no longer space for anything but suffering.  There is no way for you to return to your set point of insanity. You'd been waiting in line for too long hovering. My pet bird took off into the trees. I'm sick of seeing me having to leave. It's the only thing that's obvious; a vulnerability exposed by the breeze. Although the pain is momentary, it takes years to evolve.  I crave the contentment and peace you are lacking. Do you prefer what I imply? Nothing specific you aim to?" I'm not sure I trust what you're saying.  Not much is left in my body except bones and your fluency too. All that remains are these revolting, dirty, sickening tremors in my limbs. I can't even evolve any closer because I'm trapped in the past.  Every day is a hollow one for me; you can only satisfy my whims. It's impossible to ignore you because you're so lovely ever to last. Allowing you to suffer has made my life grumpy. Writing Prompt - Ache - Poetry Contest Sponsored by: Constance La France Written April 23, 2021