Sorry For the Dirty Laundry Mom and Dad Part 3

Slide for a second I know it was tough for you But see it through my eyes You had alcohol to ease the pain I had confusion of the ways of the world And the terror of this is the way it’s going to be forever and soo far I was accurate Look at my life Small Insecure Afraid Watching my loved ones fight And my dad never came to that occlusion until he was with my step mom and he was fighting with her and I broke down in frustration and he said It’s hard when your loved ones fight The broken home got worse before it got better Because after you left My next memory Is purple finger print son my neck from my brother Monkey see monkey do And god only knows what stuff I’m blocking out Maybe nothing It’s been hard mom I know life isn’t fair While life seems to turn up all roses for him It hasn’t Look at the accidents surrounding grandpa's estate And grandma's cancer And I love you all And my life has been a terrifying nightmare I no longer know how to mask or hide with humor I know it sounds selfish but sometimes when I call u at 3 in the morning I need someone to talk to like when you call me at three in the morning I talk to you I don't know what to say but I love you And you will never have to ask for that I may never know the truth of everything that surround my life of Reasons I cant take a compliment and cry for the world and lie to my doctors and mistrust everyone But Freud says it goes back to the parents But I always blame me and god For all the times I prayed and made the wrong prayers Like he was some genie and now you’re all paying the price for the stupidity I possess I’m not getting any better at handling Anyway laundry day is coming and I need some clean underwear So I’m going to do all the things you taught me And you know what Dad never taught me how to shave