Gemma Johnston Poet I do not know?

Sorry For Putting Myself First!!

I've lost my uncle
My mate tries to kill himself
My step gram gets throwm out of a car
I am struggling through my college course,
So I' m sorry for putting myself first!

The last 4 months have been the worst of my life!
Several times I  have thought,
How can I put a stop to this misery?
What will end this pain?

Pills,Vodka, that's what scott did
It would have worked for him if he wasn't found
Maybe I could do that too.
Slitting my wrists wont do anything
I just want to put a stop to all this hurting!

what am I thinking?
Suicide isnt the answer,
I have to prove that I can cope
I will cope
I will be myself and enjoy my life

So if I put myself first all the time I'm sorry
But I need to move on!

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Beata Agustin September 1, 2025 at 3:02 AM Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.

Skat A January 28, 2016 at 11:12 AM WELL DONE GEMMAN....SKAT

Carol Sunshine Brown December 7, 2011 at 10:46 AM Enjoyed reading your excellent poetry today and hope to be back soon to read more Gemma. This time of year we all are so busy and I for one don't have a lot of time right now but I will try. I love reading the poetry of the many talented poets here at the Soup. Hope to be reading your poetry for many more years to come. Thank you for sharing your poetry with us and may you always find the inspiration to continue with your writing endeavors whatever they may be. Love, Carol