Sorry, a rant on divorce - who knows?

Sorry, a rant on divorce … who knows … I cannot lie… I lived a life before lying for a living and I quit it on purpose. It was not good … But it earns money … But I hate lying. However, I just learned I have been living under a lie for two years. I know life, family, marriage, life, work, blah, blah, blah … Creates stress… But why lie? Really? Two years, under a lie! It doesn’t make sense, and, when it doesn’t make sense, …? I hate thinking like a lawyer but now I am back in that arena, You woke the sleeping giant. I just wanted to enjoy life and laugh and have fun, write poetry, find a new direction in life, write my books, enjoy my photography, You said, go, enjoy ... but get a job ... I am working, At least I hope my son gets paid with my writings when I die. But you all pushed, Just for a dollar. Complaining about money when we already have everything! But you want to buy Versace … blah, blah, blah … Ha, I won a 300$ Versace scarf for $10 in a gambling tournament … That I gave to my ungrateful wife … Along with all the diamonds, jewelry … that … I don’t care about money, But I am going to get paid for your lie! I gave love and then, 2022 … You are a liar! How can I still be in love with you? I make jokes that I am an idiot but, Darn, I really am an idiot! Not really, I saw the signs … But I made a promise to love my new family, Because I lost my first family because of lying, (meaning too many hours at work and away from the family) So, yes, I have very strong opinions about the separation of work and family. But I have been deceived. Even after saying that I do not take marriage lightly. My ex-wife was even surprised to learn that I was married again. But I fell in love, with my soon to be ex-wife, only to learn that I was deceived at a low point in life, post covid … So, tell me, after making a choice to be good to the family, I have been deceived, How should I feel? I really do not care. I still wear my marriage bracelet, but it is not for her anymore. A friend asked me how can I just let go? I said, because after my past, I will Love but I refuse to crumble again. I am strong! I have been a storyteller, teacher, and lover for life, It is all out in the open … So, please, prove me wrong! And, finally, you saw my poem about how much I loved my Wife, It was featured here… And, now this, it does not make sense… ~ PaulyGsWorld