Sorrows Longings

Oh how I miss my little friend, the quick pain, the glinting steel within my hand. I shiver and tremble under your touch, similar to that of a lovers carress. I can't help myself, my fingers wrap around you, slowly oh so slowly I move. A knock is at the door, I curse and slip the steel under my tongue. Mother stirs on the bed nearby, and I open the door to find, A single dark angel infront of me. Swallowing the blade I smile, as if innocently. And then is it too late, that my body chokes and I cough, too late to stop that puncture within my lungs. Coughing hard i fall to my knees, his worried dark eyes staring at me. Everything dimming until it's all gone. Screaming I awaken, my arm throbbing with angry red slices of beautiful pain. How I want more then anything to be held. In the real world. To be someone in every day life, The sorrow hits me hard, and I drop to my knees and sob, I cannot muster enough strength to stand. I curl up in a ball and pray, Someone might hold me one day. Feel their actual arms surrounding me, taking the pain away.