Something Should Have Told Me

Maybe it was the difference in the way you speak to me Or the deterioration of our bond It should have been apparent when the laughs that fertilized our garden of love and creation were kidnapped The cavity where love once flourished overflowed with betrayal The feeling of being replaced tapped me on the shoulder and slapped me in my face Something should have told me our time had ran out Maybe it was the way you look at me when you’re mad Maybe it was the way you run away from me when I was the comfort you needed when you’re sad I had this bubbling in my stomach the last time you were “going to a friends house” I couldn’t rest when you failed to come home I tried to come up with a solution to an equation I didn’t even know I was preparing for a harvest from a garden that didn’t even grow The realization of a cancerous wedge between us should have told me Maybe the ambiguity of our fate should have told me So often I prayed for a sign to confirm But every inconsistency was quickly discarded I forgot how to stand without the crutches of our relationship I seen the problem and swept it under the rug I was crippled by the need to have someone I was afraid to be alone The last time I seen you sitting in the car on the phone Something should have told me Something should have told me that love can make people do crazy things Like pretending to not know that your partner is cheating so things don’t change Like when the sun is out but its raining Like spilling red wine on a white shirt Loving you can be permanently staining Something finally told me that i’ll never be lonely as long as I got me