Sobriety

I want to seek sobriety everyday I hope to God this sleepless night I pray and pray away the pain tonight I want to be okay as I lay here, decaying like a wilted flower in May I feel this party inside me isn’t over I feel this party outside my range — I don’t want a drink, no thanks — Got me feeling less and less sober I am profoundly bewildered in angst Dear me, I’m dead in the head with dread Fearing I won’t be free from bondage instead I want to consume the Word like wine and bread But, I’m foolish and regretful…mournful and in anguish in bed… Sobriety is harder than I think Because, like an alcoholic, I want that drink Sobriety is harder than I think Because, like a smoker, I want to smoke away my issues and let the shower water collide into the sink Sobriety, I believe, is possible I’m improving — God has done the impossible In my life…in my life… Of peace and strife I need to rest my eyes that gaze vacantly on in my bedroom of mess I hope to God I detest the loathsome feeling of lonesomeness I pray and pray away the pain tonight I want to be okay as I lay here, saying in my cranium how I’m going to fight the epic, grand fight this June I feel this party inside me isn’t over I feel this party outside my range — I don’t want a drink, no thanks — Got me feeling less and less sober I am profoundly bewildered in angst Dear me, I’m dead in the head with dread Fearing I won’t be free from bondage instead I want to consume the Word like wine and bread But, I’m foolish and regretful…mournful and in anguish in bed… Sobriety is harder than I think Because, like an alcoholic, I want that drink Sobriety is harder than I think Because, like a smoker, I want to smoke away my issues and let the shower water collide into the sink Sobriety, I believe, is possible I’m improving — God has done the impossible In my life…in my life… Of peace and strife Still, I don’t know exactly how I feel right now But I’m feeling at ease with myself somehow Sobriety is in my grasp, I understand That I have relapsed, but know that His mercy is at hand

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