Smile

"Okay, sit there. Smile!" Behind this smile I hide my inner feelings My imperfections My insecurities My depressing thoughts. "Okay, say cheese!" The darkness hides behind the light of my smile My tears are inward and soundless. I suffer silently, if not with a smile, with indifference. The lack of confidence The lack of sense Hides behind this smile. "Ready? Smile!" But my mask of happiness--my smile-- It promises: Everything is alright. Everything in my life is great. Do I deceive people or do I deceive myself? My smile bottles my emotions My laugh eases the pain But my smile will never save me from myself. "Hey, can you please smile?" "No. I'm done smiling." Instead, it kills me slowly inside.