Skipping Kidney Stones

Did you even want to be found? I took my shackles off and formed a search and rescue team But did you even want to be found? You’ve been running all your life I think you’ve aced this marathon Just come home to me and sprawl out on the floor you were just begging on With your conlifting personality traits, I’ve never met someone so dynamic And tempers teaching you a math lesson in hopes of solving this The ghosts of your forgotten selves, departed from each trauma train you’ve conducted But I sure hope we don't need an seance for you to see them So reassess your motivation and collect your spirit where you left it to play pretend At the mausoleum You caged the blooming butterfly that is your willingness And this can’t be a coincidence You put all your eggs in one basket But if just a crack would send you packing, Then I overestimated your ability to sense danger coming And how could I have saved you? All you left me was an empty water bottle and a broken hatchet I traded my decaying sneakers for strapped boots So I could take action in the streams we waded through And we took our hopeful hands and promises of longer lifespans To the humble cabin in the woods you brought me to Walking your haunted dolls through the hallway Looks like your cheated best friend resume Had nothing critical to say And my phone became a hotline for a 9-1-1 dopamine rush As if I could call you How many times i’ve said “I swear I closed that door” But I always come back to it open just a crack, Enough for a sedated rumor to slip through Shivering while yelling for chivalry I knew it wasn’t coming but I kept my yapper shut Heartache gripped your one-sided prayers And sent them racing through the spaces in the floorboards Don't worry, even though I feel I’ve given you everything I’ll find a way to push the limits and find what constitutes as “more” I knew how this was going from the beginning But I kept my ceaseless engine of a mouth shut! Besides, it’s not my words that have ever left the deepest cut You put all your eggs in one basket And this can’t be a coincidence How could I have saved you? How could I have held my tongue with my arms in a mental straight jacket? I would never put myself at risk of being lost with anyone but you We took our hatchets and loosely structured escape plan To the cabin in the woods you brought me to