Since I Left

It’s so cold. I can’t feel my fingers or my feet. Almost ready to admit defeat. Except I look into his eyes. I see the ice behind his sparkling blue eyes. Remember all the heart breaking lies. The way his mouth shaped I love you so easily. The way I believed him so easily. I fell so hard. Now I’m lying on the floor. Shattered picture frames scattered around. Rose petals dusting the edges of the glass. Almost as if trying to soften the blow. It doesn’t work. It’s a knife twisted into my Heart. I want to scream. And Doctor. Mr. PhD who thinks he’s God. The medicine isn’t working. Nothing is working. I can’t do this. I can’t. I won’t. I’m not irrational. I know what I’m doing. You don’t know anything! None of you do! You don’t get it. Never lost the person who held you up. We lived for each other. Now he’s run off. Took a train to get away from me. Don’t you see? He left me. Left me with nothing. Now he’s with some chic. Telling her the same lies. And Doctor. Mr. I’ll fix your broken heart. I don’t need any drugs. I’m not crazy. I just have a broken heart. A tortured soul. He’s gone now. And Doctor. I’m leaving too. Don’t try to stop me. You can’t fix something that was never whole. I’m so cold. I can’t feel my lips. Can’t feel anything. Since I left.