Silently I Cry

Silently I cry Heart shedding tears thru my eyes Knowing life is full of lies Knowing you just watch time go by Tears silently drip then dry Feeling so alone I cry Heart beating steady as minutes go by Taunting me as it doesn't die Sobs echo throughout my mind Strength to go on I can not find Thinking of the past I look behind Fear and hurt help my soul remind Remind my mind of what I can not do Making my day so much worse than blue A miracle so long over due If only I could be you Swallowing gooey lump after lump Sobs coming down while my heart still pumps They say everyone's life has speed bumps Everyone gets broken thrown down in the dumps But I'm not everyone I'm me And strength is all used up can't anyone see Sitting so still how can this be Blackness won't even come and swallow me