Silent Screams

All these things that happened..playing ever so clear in my head. They are my secrets to take with me, until the day that I am dead. Too scared to tell anyone, suffocating me so I can't breathe. Alone I face the darkness, bottling up every emotion because they only make me seethe. People may read this, some confused but still those who know what it means. This is the best way I can put it, these are my silent screams. Everything comes crashing down on you..Why at such a cost? You took my happiness from me, innocence once held to be forever lost. It's so easy to say it never happened, everything felt behind a mask. Blocking it is never permanent, the pain will always last. It just couldn't stop at one bad thing, you pray the pain in your soul is numbing, just to have more trauma you never saw coming. I can never escape it.. the sound of those silent screams. They stay with me wherever I go, they even haunt my dreams. I know what you are thinking, this is never something you want to see. But some of us have terrifying secrets, that are ours alone to keep. The people who will get this will know what these words mean. Reading between the lines is easier than it may seem. This story is heartbreaking to write. It's painful, sad and true..but these bad things happened to me and I pray they never happen to you. I do not seek sympathy. These are just words left unspoken. I am not completely torn...I am just beautifully broken.