Silence

For most of my life I've been silent,
Every moment I've remembered..
there was silence.
Silence in all of my actions, thoughts and expressions. 

I don't know the reason why,
But I know there's a middle ground.
At the far extreme, there's the over achiever, 
the people pleaser. 
And to the other end, the least extreme, 
there's the silenced, hopeless feeler. 

Many times there's a reason for their silence,
but for me, there's no one to blame but me. 
I'm the blame. 

I blame myself for missing out on opportunities I knew,
I could have achieved but missed it because I stayed silent. 
And to that end, I've watched people get celebrated 
for the same things I've done while I stayed silent. 
Which is why I blame me!

But although I'm the blame, I'm assured,
I never want to be at the far extreme. 
To this day, there's a burning sensation inside of me
to release my silence.

Although, I don't think I'll ever be that free,
I am still longing for that middle ground. 

Deeper inside, I know my hidden treasures will surface 
one day, but it won't be to the death of my silence. 
As in achieving the middle ground, 
I'm self-assured that I'll continue to remain silent
until my voice is heard. 

- Ansar
8/03/21

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Brigitte L. C. Waldner

Date: 7/2/2021 2:24:00 AM

These are very impressing words, Ansar. Thanks for writing them, Brigitte

Gershon Wolf

Date: 4/14/2021 9:28:00 PM

Let the volume come to you, my friend... And you will find volubility, as well, in your poetic pen! Light and Illumination, Gershon

D.W. Rodgers

Date: 3/14/2021 5:55:00 PM

The most critical point is that "Deeper inside, I know my hidden treasures will surface." Trust yourself share your treasures wiht the world.

Ansar Mohammed
Date: 4/7/2021 9:22:00 AM

Thank you, DW. You are most kind.

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 3/10/2021 5:44:00 AM

I think of what I have read here, this so far is the one that most speaks to me. I appreciate the authenticity of this introspective piece. Yes it is possible to find a middle ground while being true to ones quieter nature. Blessings to you on your quest to know yourself. I suspect you are in for a real treat.