Sick

I’ve stared in the heart of depression
As emptiness infected me like virus
Choked for years behind a smile,
I have never known factual

Frightened to be called weak
I die inside, but with smile
Thus graduating in art of falsehood
As even I these smirks fool

I’d imagine my inevitable tangible ending 
How little it would be of significance
As my cold soul roved ghostly
Purposeless, lost and dead

Bliss drained from my very core
And mornings appear hopeless
Filled with finite rays of distress 
As the only shade seemed to be death

I walk with pockets rich with smiles
But nobody knew what’s inside
And as the moon salutes night,
This sickness circle’s my head

2012-06-05
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012


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Date: 8/6/2013 7:15:00 PM
Smiling on the outside and crying on the inside...yes...hard to do...God bless....congratulations on the recognition
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Date: 8/5/2013 8:17:00 PM
deep....xox....PD
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Date: 8/5/2013 6:59:00 AM
An awesome piece which really deserved its great win! CONGRATULATIONS my dear friend, Ronny! Thank you so much for sharing as well & nice meeting you here. And since somebody sent me a message, i'm passing it to you, Happy Friendship Day! love & hugs, Leonora
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Date: 8/4/2013 10:13:00 PM
Ronny, , Congratulations, with your winning poem..... goodnight~ Linda
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Date: 8/4/2013 5:29:00 PM
awesome poem...SKAT
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Date: 11/21/2012 8:56:00 PM
Ronny,, Stopping by to greet you and every other soup poet, with a special thank you comment, during this wonderful Thanksgiving season. Hope you do not mind the time I am taking to express my sincere appreciation for any support you have offered during the years, or time you have been here on the soup. I am deeply thankful and extend to you my best wishes for a happy and healthy Poetic Magical Thanksgiving Day. *Always & Forever, the Poet Destroyer; -*
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Date: 6/5/2012 11:34:00 AM
A belated congratulations on your placement in Nikko's contest Ronny. Love, Carol
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Date: 6/4/2012 12:12:00 PM
Congrats Ronny on your win!A great write!
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Date: 6/3/2012 4:38:00 AM
a big YES to this, ronny.... congrats with huggs! :)
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Date: 6/3/2012 2:30:00 AM
Ronny congrats on your win, David
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Date: 6/2/2012 11:21:00 AM
Hi Ronny! Oh shucks, do you know that as I read this, I somehow could also relate to it? Just hiding behind smiles sometimes, when some things bother me but you just have to continue smiling-- and I think you've captured depression quite well here....hopefully this isn't reality for you anymore, and I just wish you the best, Ronny-- Thank you so much for entering this heartfelt poem in my contest and super congrats to you!
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Date: 5/25/2012 6:55:00 PM
Ronny; this is very heartfelt. I just hope it is just a poem, but if it is not remember that nothing lasts forever. May God bless you today tomorrowa nd always. Lucilla
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Date: 5/24/2012 8:40:00 PM
Ronny,, humm.. this poem takes a serious side... ..enjoyed stopping by tonight~ take care :-) PD
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Date: 5/24/2012 4:11:00 PM
Excellent portrayal of this sickness that invades many minds in the world. My husband for one. he suffers horribly from this. I hope you do not, but if so, I pray you will find a way to deal with it!
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Date: 5/24/2012 12:34:00 PM
"Oh Ronny, God has everything planned out and we cannot do it. He is doing it for us. So relax and be. He is watching over us :)). Let Him in. You're hurting because you are not real with Him as people needs Him as fish needs water. We are hurting always when we are shoving Him out. Love ya! Awesome write. Toquyen"
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Date: 5/24/2012 11:12:00 AM
Your was absolutly elegant. The ways you fell together was beautiful, yet sad. I loved it
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Date: 5/24/2012 12:00:00 PM
thank you glad you enjoyed it
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