Shunned

Breaking down in the heart and mind. With all regrets that are truly not kind. Shocked at people are, so painful to see. Abused with hated and ecstasy. Violated and directed with torments Lost of words or comments. Hatred gushing out of life long experience. Reminding yourself to become absence. Coward and scared to even breathe. Like the feeling of knives unsheathe. Sharp but not enough to cut. Enough to scare like a door that immediately shut. The hand raised to help you is a lie. It is a hand that slaps you so you can die. Rough around the edges. Crawling in your dreams in ledges. Powered to stay alive. You feel people want you to take a dive. Just stop, and fall down. Hoping to break your mental crown. Hiding a feeling that never feels real. Like shaking hands with demons for a deal. Blocked out, out of your own story. Thinking that people are stealing your glory. Ashamed with fear. With eyes that are full of tear. Lost in such hidden romance. Luck has it seems to be a dance. Moving around in your head. With scary thoughts and dread. Feels like you never leave. So you feel so many that grieve. In your mind that is lost. Full of drama that holds you down in cost. Keeping in the shadow. You watch people so shallow. Gut instinct says that life with them is a muse. When your just standing your accuse. Society is just so lame. Like all the people that are in it your to blame. Soloing life is a brief. Walking away is some what a relief. I dreamed of many things. With beautiful sorrows of wings. Wavered in a direction that leads no where. Escaping everything by a hair. Pointing into the sky. And asking yourself why. The cage is so big. Just enough to put on a huge rig. Moving back and fourth. It feels that your life does not have a worth. Caned by laws of laughter to deceive. Shackled up to be bent to your will to receive. When you hope to hope. A person can just show you the rope. They have such friendly hands. Like the deserts of sands. Dangerous it is to just keep walking in it. Lost cannot find your way even a little bit. Just seem like your heart feels dry. Then you give up and give a sigh. That moment that you do is just all a dream. You are really in a ward you will scream. Thrust upon you because you could not protect. So what cost you is this effect. Warping in to your mind to leave this place. You feel full of disgrace. With nothing to drink. Causing your true self to think. Grief is such a pain with sorrow to gain. Looking out in your own rain.