Shes the Reason

She is the reason I don't feel anything She is the reason I'm so cold She is the reason I'm not whole She is the reason why I don't trust anybody She is the reason my walls are so high She is the reason I cry myself to sleep every night She is the reason that I turn to drugs too feel safe again She is the reason why I lost my soul She is the reason why my demons scream so loud. She destroyed me and everything that I am, they say the worst thing you can do too someone is just dissapear without saying why. I didn't believe them until you were gone and I had no explanation. I was left alone to break down. I was left alone to sit with my own thoughts and wonder about everything that I did wrong. She is the reason why I was left alone too fall deeper into the black hole of my soul. And she was the reason I picked myself up and continued to move on, because she had. I meant nothing too her so now she means nothing to me. And I can't wait for her to come back because when she does, I will be the reason that she is crying.