Sheltering In Place Is Killing Me

Alone in my mind 
Dangerously dangerous
Expecting the worst
Even though I teach other to never do this
Expecting to be rejected 

Night air might revive me 
But I stay inside, with the lights out
Dark shades cover my windows of happiness
I squelch any semblance of joy
I do not deserve it

My feelings have slid down the bad hill
Are now lying in a muck of pure disappointment and despair
This sheltering-in-place is killing me.
KILLING ME!

Alone in my mind I imagine others
Living their lives as usual.
Status quo.
Not hiding inside quivering
Dying two years before they need to.
Dying from pure evil loneliness
And depression 
Because I am brazenly alone.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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Keely Avatar
September 19, 2020 at 6:23 AM
Alas no-one is living their lives as usual. This lovely Soup community is a light in my long day, and you are one its brightest lights Ms. K.
Krutsinger Avatar
September 19, 2020 at 2:36 PM
Thank you ever so much Sharon. What a lovely comment!
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