She Smoked

She smoked

She smoked, 
my mother did, a LOT!
I never liked it.
To me she looked like
of those “molls” in 
detective magazines,
later on television, 
cigarette dangling 
from the corner 
of her mouth
acrid smoke
curling up (she didn’t inhale)
choking the air
as she played cards
or worked
at her desk.

To be sure,
there were “issues”
between husband and wife.
Mid-Great Depression
Dad out of work
or out of town for work
alone with
kids to manage
clothe and feed 
with what?
So she smoked.

Small family Jewish
grocer let bills run up.
Smoking a comfort?
Housedresses, nothing new,
shoes needed for kids.
Teeth bad, pull them.
Children need dental care.
Sharp tongue cutting
no whining
“Just get on with it”.
Hurt, not understanding
we sulked. She smoked

Smoking and smoking
taking in relatives
with lost jobs, lost homes,
sick or in need, managing somehow
depressed (never admit it)
feeling put down,
frustrated, underrated 
and underappreciated
never accomplished anything
worthwhile with her
college degree.
But, in her own way,
a saint in a housedress 
Smoking away the grief.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2025

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Rodrigues Avatar
May 5, 2025 at 10:21 AM
For some, their choice of vice. My daughter smokes a lot too. My parents both quit. One time, when my aunt was visiting, I came home and my mom had a cigarette she was smoking…shook me up. Great poem. Sounds like your mom dealt with a lot. Hug
Peckham Avatar
May 5, 2025 at 2:05 PM
My mother smoked all her life and died at over 100! Go figure! Thank you so much for the read and comment.
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