Shattered Glass Dipped In Red: Four Shards; First Shard

First Shard My childhood was tainted in a single moment In an instant It happened so fast And unable to go back Turn back time To change that moment To continue the purity For the purity to last all through my childhood Giving it no room for flaws Maybe then my adulthood could be saved Saved from the filth from the past Maybe then my life wouldn’t be burdened In such a way Fill my child self with other issues to carry Because these, Right now, Is too much? Mind broken Like glass that was shattered Pieces scattered throughout my mind Cutting my delicate fingers as I try to pick up the pieces The smallest pieces I can hardly see are what hurt the most They catch me by surprise It stings But yet I continue to clean the mess The mess I did not make When I get close to being done The ones I can not see sting I frantically search for what seems to be invisible pieces Bleeding more and more Forgetting I am bleeding No Ignoring I am bleeding Because the mess needs to be cleaned It needs to be spotless But now a new mess arises I take notice to the blood that has filled my mind And now Another mess to be cleaned Blood Everywhere