Shattered

Wake up in a cold sweat, trying to make it till morning Can’t forget all you’ve done, it came without warning A tidal wave through our peaceful village, tearing and destroying All we’d built up and cherished, but there’s no ignoring The stillness beside me as I fight these battles alone Your silent dreaming as I try to restore our home Filled with all this pain inside me, you used to be my greatest strength But now I hardly recognize you, you breathe on me with stranger’s breath I lay there in our bed, shaking and crying Waiting but no relief comes, I’m slowly dying Just wanting to be held by you, but there’s no denying The frigid air that floats between us, after all the lying Our once proud union, slowly washed away All those memories now only fade to gray So many things I hold on to dearly Now through the tears I don’t see you clearly Could it be we’ve had our time? That this path is yours, and another is mine But these thoughts of you still haunt my dreams Lying next to you, holding back my screams Of fear and doubt and guilt and shame Could a hug from you now possibly change the game? Or are you sleeping just as well As the night we heard our wedding bells So still I lie here all alone In this house that used to be a home My tears they lessen every night You lie there asleep after another fight All I wanted was to be consoled By the one with whom I wanted to grow old But now I’m not sure it even matters Can we still be whole again, or has it been shattered?