Shadows

My shadows have left me in a place of my own regret Always looking for more, my hearts desires never being met I once longed for a day when I would no longer cry Then I go and bring destruction on myself so that I can only die What was once my enemies are now my close friends Claiming to be my best interest and that there’ll be there till the end I walk along the road that I have chosen for myself And my only thought is that im not only polluting others but im killing my very own health Things that were once so above all the rest Are now under my feet and sadly I have failed the test My days are filed with the knowing that I have single handedly killed my own soul Thinking that all I did was ok and that one day I would soon be whole I look back and think that I can never be who I used to be No matter how hard I try I know deep with in I can never truly be free But just as I glisten in all that I have down wrong I see a hope that came up from the dust A hand reaches out and tells me that I can live again as long as in him I will trust He reaches out and picks up my lifeless body that has been crushed by my own hand He stroked away the pain and says that he is the only one that truly understands He’s been the since that day I was born when he first opened my eyes He seen me fall into all the sin that I was in and how my heart bought all the worlds lies I thank him that he was there to pick me up when I was only left there to die Not knowing of the trouble I’ve caused him I see him begin to cry Why was this god crying and what had gotten him so sad His face was swelled with tears and his smile was no longer glad I looked into the eyes of the only father that I ever known He looked at me and said “daughter im glad that you’ve finally come home”