Sexual Immorality

Sexual immorality I've been sexually harassed so many times but because I thought it was attention, it felt fun. See because society has painted flirting to be more of a sexual pleasure than what is, So honestly, I never could tell the difference. But what does it matter if I'm part time celibate. I'm picky about who I want to penetrate me. I'm part time Christian because I proclaim sexual abstinence, But when it comes to certain people from the male species I give in. So does it really count if someone who made me feel uncomfortable touches me in a way I prefer he didn't. I guess it doesn't since I can be a sexual hypocrite. I don't want him to make my blood boil because I guess before I give in, I have to lay down rules that I'll probably bend for you because your case was too convincing and I wasn't strong enough to withhold myself from everything you are. I wasn't strong enough to realise I'm losing everything in me for the this little moment that could ruin everything. I wasn't strong enough to tell you that I did it all so you couldn't leave me. So I guess in my mind all of this is to protect me from looking too easy. I guess I'm not easy because I could make you wait long enough to see you move on and break down because you no longer give me attention. I have been sexually harassed 3 times in my entire life because all those times he thought we were having sex, he was fxcking a dead body that just wanted to please him, But ruining a soul that just wanted to love him. ~Low-Key Poet -Sihle Simelane