Sensitive people don't cry for no reason
"When I cried because of you.
Even though it was "just because" you looked away.
"Just because" you ignored me.
"Just because" you blocked me.
"Just because" you called me annyoing.
"Just because" you dragged me down because of my project I put effort to."
The ones who can cry, they indeed got the best gift in the World.
A real pleasure.
""Just because" you accepted my gifts and tooked them whenever even though you never had feelings for me.
"Just because" you touched my hand"
"Why didn't you "just" asked me why I did that? Why didn't you "just" pull your hand away then? Why didn't you "just" answer my question properly when I asked you if you loved me? Why didn't you answer when I called your name after you cried because of me, why I was infront of me, why didn't you tell me I crossed the line"
"Because I didn't feel good being asked in class.
From you laughter I didn't feel your question was asked genuine.
Was meant genuine.
I was way too flustered and didn't know what to do.
Because I was scared you would follow me and I would just cry more after seeing your..face.
I thought you wouldn't care"
We are interested what actions the person would've took.
But questions following of the cause could never appear after the reaction did not last 2 days but exploded exact that day.
Answers not given, "she seemed okay that day", gives us a relief.
"Because I didn't wanted to hurt you."
"But you did"
"But you didn't show me I did, even though we are both human we don't feel the same way. We don't think the same way. There is nothing to discuss from my side."
There is really no discussion to be taken.
When he called your name, maybe he just wanted to tell you that your things are still in the classroom?
Wouldn't you be more upset then?
Mad?
To not have all answers is sometimes better.
"What if..", let the thoughts travel but never send them.
Never tell them.
In your brqin you can take conversations how many you want to.
But still, here is reality.
You never know the know of the person.
You never actually know know them.
His bestfriend told me: "but you also don't know him for that long", even though I do for 3 years, he was right.
It wasn't meant as: "best or that much", no now I understood.
I am thankful that love left me being confused.
I am thankful that I am sensitive.
If I have known I would've been mad or still sad.
But what will it do?
If I see him at my work in the future I will work with him.
Not so I can work with him.
So I can do what I wan
Copyright © Adna Demiri | Year Posted 2024
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