Self Mutilation

Sadness over taking me Bubbling pit of overwhelming grief I am tired of living in these yesterday’s Drowning in all this pain The “Why am I here and they are gone?”When I was the one told “you won’t be here for long.” The disaster of it plays over in my head. Guilt ridden soul that’s will never be fed What have I done to deserve such a fate? I have fallen out of gods good grace These days kinda disappear into the next Numbing the pain is what I do best Because I can’t lift this burden off my chest I am exhaustion and broken Barely a soul definition of a zombie Who lacks self-control A Silent suicide That nobody sees Because all they are seeing Is the junkie I came to be ~Written 8/07/07 JAZ~