Self Inflicted Realization
I feel shadowed by past personal failures
Those that eat away at hopes and dreams
Finding myself struggling in between
A bottomless pit and the next hand hole
Either I''ll sink out of view
Or climb up onto a new high
At fault for past actions
Living with a constant plague of what if''s
This or that
Surely would have brought forth
A more sane version of such an insane mind
Dwelling in a material creation of God
Good intentions slipped through my fingers
As I failed my maternal and paternal figures
In their eyes all hope was lost
Thus mine dwindles in and out of perception
Once dreams seemed close enough to touch
Almost able to become reality
As a failure now I notice
Less than few believe in me
Copyright © Heather Radford | Year Posted 2005
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