Self Harm

ive been quiet to long i need to be vocal need a magic telescope i can see hope thru while i remain drug free and teetotal a blade is sumthin i need to be close to self harmin since bein a teenager ill never let my dreams fade people stare at my scarres like there lookin at there favourite screensaver put my heart in every lyric on each page i know its as bad as my moms drinkin and brothers drug taking but when you go home you have a hug watin i never expected no one to luv me sumtimes i wish sumone would hug me they say home is where the heart is alone is where the dark is if i had a better childhood would i be able to trust more openly would i speak my mind without first puttin it in a book of poetry would i push more hopfully look for love more vocally more ups and downs than a light switch why should i be tight lipped ive been searchin and not findin workin and still climbin i dont need an advocate this is real talk call me the white fabolous im cleanin out my closet like my idol eminem paintin a paicture u should screen it out and watch it ill share my views before i give my pen 2 them they will try and paint me as the bad guy but aint seen the world thru my eyes 2 months after my dad died my best friend commited suicide 6 months ago was the last time i self harmed and it seems like a life time instead of usin a blade i pick up a pen and follow my dream of bein a rapper so i write rhymes behind every dark cloud theres a silver linin you have to have the will 2 find it lifes short u need a passion or dream to fill the time in 2 get to the top it may take a while be strong and dont let anyone break your smile