Self-Trust Is All But a Dream

Hello everyone! There is going to be a 2nd part to Entertainment real soon. Stay tuned! Thanks:) Don’t be discouraged Don’t be doubtful Don’t be disheartened Be happy, not mad Be humble, not proud Be quiet, not loud Be merciful, not condemning Be cheerful, not anxious Be glad, not envious Hello Hello I feel insecure I see your halo A cloud of a windy blow I’m feeling brilliant Can’t say I’m excellent Perhaps, insignificant I can’t even say a simple hello to my friends behind me I’m just an outlandish, bittersweet introvert all over again Spreading my mental wings of set-me-free Be my grace… Fading like your face… Caught without a trace Hello How have you been? I’ve seen the unseen Oh wait… I hesitate… I can’t breathe… I’m at ease… My mind is a castle on a train So high and so low…can’t refrain From driving y’all insane… All to numb the lucky pain Inside me… Inside you… However, fear is far behind me Hope and cheer is what I want and need I need to nourish it like my itty-bitty seed I feel like fainting a five hundred million miles from you I feel like tainting your fingers with my blood of residue I am a quiet cello in your sleep I am that crippled fiend…A creep… Only to find light on the other side of the sun… I’m somewhat like an extrovert Extending my mind’s flimsy, flowery frame Pulling out envy's weed…what’s your name? I hurt like an expert, wearing your blue shirt Basically, my nightmare became a reality Frankly, my eyes shower and my gaze is but a coward Mind control got me in its web of lies…hardly… Lately, my numb cranium is releasing dangerous defeat…I’m flying and soaring like a blue bird… I’m an empty page… Okay, I am enraged by being in this cage Of my skin…of your distress… Of your sin…you’re just trying to impress Strangely, I feel old age creep on me – Awkward I can trust in my illuminating instincts It’s misfortunate that I’m so nervous I see wondrous winks and chinks Extremely battered… Nothing else matters… Brain-scattered… I hear silence and its purrs Yeah, my bro…my wild bro He is the only friend I’ll be hanging out with For the rest of my life though I always mix up reality and fantasy and myth