Seeking Assurance

I am sad and need reassurance this choice was not bad at the time of searching Home's new-found voice, and is not bad now, and will not be bad and sad in my shortening future. Diminishing now into year by year forecasts, no longer this seventh decade by assured next decade sensing less reassured choices may matter no longer than month by sad and glad life insurance paid up month. When will I seize my last happy budding Spring? Will I recognize Her when She whole-sum comes to spread Her good choice seeds? I am mad to have purchased a distressed property condo and need soothing by a distressed New England rusty industrial historic community on a distressed EarthTribe continent on a distressed Earth crust wet with rising and thickening sickening salt water. I need way more regenerative EarthHealth systemic reassurance Some better organized cooperative ownership, stewardship, management, organic gardening, co-invested harvesting multicultural and polyculturally robust nonviolent democratically gifted communication. I need expanding green ecofeminist bicameral network reassurance I won't die alone and sad distressed traumatized chronically stressed clinically depressed politically repressed economically Patriarchal-Capitalist suppressed into win/lose arguments competitive consumer markets retail sales on formerly sacred offering plates. I feel sad Christianity and Islam and Judaism are so often for sale to the lowest capital survivalist fear-mongerer, monocultural anthro-supremacist, anti-godly StraightWhiteMale historically royal privilegedest. I feel glad that nonviolent communication, trusts in HealthyDemocracy dialogue more than SicKleptocracy debate to divide and separate, I feel mad that Deep Learning Therapy is seldom applied to Presidential Compassion Dialogues, to BiPartisan Green EcoPolicy Conventions for healthiest international continental national state county and/or local levels of organizing our EarthTribe CoOperative Habitats, organically co-invested like any healthy regenerative body property mind soul nature systemic polypathic spirit Not quite so distressed as this condominium association I invested in last year and foolishly graduated into a successful election to a kinda right wing real estate fascist clearly not green cooperative WOKE executive board of toothless so unsmiling sad mad feeling bad Patriarchal-Capitalist Directors Expecting CondoMinions to hold our breath till cost-ineffective budgets stop overheating and exploding toward bankruptcy, Systemically unravelling while absentee owners thoughtlessly protect their polished sharpened nails admiring their gleaming hard right reach toward God's great individualistic inspiring destiny in this RealProperty Land where cash and Straight White Patriarchs are historically-correct monoculturing Kings Elite empowerment feeling fading climate casualty sad, Needing reassurance next year's revenue, and preferably next quarter's, will continue to outpace egregiously inflated and untaxed anthro-privileged wealth-share costs.