Seeing For the First Time

Today I saw her As if for the first time She had aged dramaticly Deep lines all over her face crippled and deformed she was now Barely clinging to life When once she was so beautiful So full of energy strength and perfectly Shape from head to toe I recall many complimenting her beauty I felt so proud Yet now I felt a deep fearing pain in my heart Now I've noticed how She looked tired and worn out As if she once fought many battles Yet won few Many scars she worn upon her skin deep and thick They were But not as many nor as deep as the ones She wore unpon her heart She had not always been good in her life Fallen to bad habits and bad decisions Selfish and cold hearted at one point I had spent many years angry at her and even Maybe a little hate But when I saw her today for the first time I heard criies so loud and it was my heart breaking I knew then I had always loved her And now in her old age sickened by her past choices Clinging to life yet knowing death peeks from around the corner I realized I shouldn't have wasted so much time Holding on to what cannot be changed I realized that precious moments will Never have another chance And I have lost them because of my own poor choices Now as I watch my mother slowly and painfully go I will be losing someone that is so dear to my heart That has shared more than half of my life With me and there is no more time To show her how much I love her Now when I seen her for the first time I saw how precious she was to my heart I saw how much more I will be alone I saw one half of me being gone I saw just how much she meant....