Scream

I can feel the darkness creep in. The chatter in my mind is getting louder and stronger. I steady myself as I know it’s coming for me. That inner voice has awoken again, like a starving beast, wailing for its fill. It takes hold of my reality. The rage flows into me like the poisonous venom from a serpent bite. The pain takes hold. like a bullet as it leaves it’s chamber. my inner self twisting and warping in the vortex of chaos. I stare out into the world The twinkle in my eye I once had, vanishes. Replaced with numbness and a single tear sliding down my lifeless face. I want to cry and let it all out. Release the pain and hurt but I can’t. It won’t allow me that merciful wish. I am trapped. In my mind I am screaming for something to take away this painful dread I feel. It consumes me and becomes the only thing that lets me know I am still alive. How much longer can I keep fighting this invisible invader. It’s taking away everything I am. My dreams, my love, my purpose. But when the darkness fades away, and it will. I still have hope, that one day I will be released from its grasp and allow my soul that peaceful silence It longs for.