Schizophrenia and Me

Good Morning My old friend Nice waking up to see you again Still doing ok? Cause I am doing fine Except for these thoughts,dreams and pains of mine Do not worry over me I will make it through Just if you please could stop showing up out of the blue Scaring me half to death Along with any woman I ever met I would greatly appreciate it Thank you Yes I remember back when I tried to do you in Docs told me I could not be your buddy You pushed my mother away To the point it was questioned her love for me Yet our friendship began You took me places I have never been To the edge of life itself and back again Just was me and you friend All through school I was the loser Walking those halls 'o hell I would never that girl amuse her Many a boys lucky at most proms Not me I was home with you and five dames For the life of me I can not remember their names I dreamed a dream of dreams Entering them asleep and awake You shown me that no death was in my life to take Or my existence had no goodness sake Staring at me from the bottom of that lake I swear one of these days I will find someone So we can go our separate ways I am not tired of you pal It is just I am always alone Even in a group With my family at home Speaking to noone on my cell phone Copying actors off the T.V. Wanting to be somebody I can never be Trying to seem normal When I knew I was lie But you took me and made this empty lifeless shell So that I would not die You saved my life a thousand times fold Even now that I am 42 yrs old What I can I say to you friend? Where can I go? That you have not shown me Or that I do not know So many times love came and gone Til I just stop answering the door I have 2 twin daughters Whose mother used your name on court papers For my name not to be theirs anymore But it is ok We never can win Even when we do not lose Because I was never a real person And we were never friends This poem is (ALLEGORY) but it is not in the *poem type* list So I put free verse.