Schizophrenia
I just wanted to be alone
Not suicidal or delusional
You’re the one who found the problems
I thought I’d hid so well
Psycho you called me, then offered your help
Yeah, you’re such a good friend
But I think this charade needs to end
See, YOU’RE the one with the problems, not me
And I’m sick of you attaching all the fault to me
I’ve got enough burdens of my own
I don’t need yours too, especially schizophrenia
Ok, so all problems have a fix
But seriously, you don’t have to follow me around like that
I just want to be alone sometimes, well, a lot
So, please, give me some space
Go lurk and lure some other place!
The people are out to get me and I don’t know who but they’re everywhere and I don’t know where but they stare and they stare, and there’s a glimmer at the corner of my eye and then I know that he’s there and I run but I know that I can’t get away because he’s here and he’s there and they stare and they stare and I can’t get away so I’ll hide and probably die and then you won’t follow me anymore
Mom keeps calling a doctor, and they have me on drugs
I’m so lonely, it’s like the whole world has abandoned me
I didn’t realize this was what it was like to be alone
I miss even you, you keep leaving too
I wish someone would just come to stay….
Then a man showed up, and stayed with me
Even when the drugs wore off and I hallucinated
And he helped me through and eventually
I came to terms with my new reality
Enough that I can express who I really am
Outside the padded room and the straight-jacket (which is just a myth)
And I’m no longer terrified of not being accepted
Because there’s always somebody who can understand
And he’s by my side every step of every day
So I’ll write this and let myself be open
Just a bit, I think
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For the Mental Illness Contest
Copyright © Glory Winzer | Year Posted 2015
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