Schizophrenia

I just wanted to be alone Not suicidal or delusional You’re the one who found the problems I thought I’d hid so well Psycho you called me, then offered your help Yeah, you’re such a good friend But I think this charade needs to end See, YOU’RE the one with the problems, not me And I’m sick of you attaching all the fault to me I’ve got enough burdens of my own I don’t need yours too, especially schizophrenia Ok, so all problems have a fix But seriously, you don’t have to follow me around like that I just want to be alone sometimes, well, a lot So, please, give me some space Go lurk and lure some other place! The people are out to get me and I don’t know who but they’re everywhere and I don’t know where but they stare and they stare, and there’s a glimmer at the corner of my eye and then I know that he’s there and I run but I know that I can’t get away because he’s here and he’s there and they stare and they stare and I can’t get away so I’ll hide and probably die and then you won’t follow me anymore Mom keeps calling a doctor, and they have me on drugs I’m so lonely, it’s like the whole world has abandoned me I didn’t realize this was what it was like to be alone I miss even you, you keep leaving too I wish someone would just come to stay…. Then a man showed up, and stayed with me Even when the drugs wore off and I hallucinated And he helped me through and eventually I came to terms with my new reality Enough that I can express who I really am Outside the padded room and the straight-jacket (which is just a myth) And I’m no longer terrified of not being accepted Because there’s always somebody who can understand And he’s by my side every step of every day So I’ll write this and let myself be open Just a bit, I think ©Copyright 2015. All rights reserved. For the Mental Illness Contest