Scared of Living
Echos in time
Keep calling my name
Talks back with such negativity
Bad memories play over and over
Good memories on pause
Or even forgotten
I can't remember back to a time I was happy inside
It doesn't even cross my mind
It's like I've lost that flame that burn so brightly before i turned 15 and moved on to now
It's all a blur
It's all a race for an end
There wasn't even a starting line
I just dropped out of sight of me
It's mind boggling to realize how much life I have wasted
I am sure I smiled I am sure I have laughed
But I have never found true joy
It's crazy It's not even normal
To focus on so much bad
And not see all this good
Blinded by insecurities
Reminiscing on regrets
I don't have any time left to look for the beauty in everyday things
Just to awake is a blessing
It's complicating to me
But yet should be so simple
To carry on each day like it may be my last
Why can I not recognize this
I am way to damn old to be this damn scared of living.
Copyright © David Grasby | Year Posted 2023
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