Same Way That It Starts

It ends how it starts I end each day the same way I start, every day that I start I got a lot on my heart and my mind fell apart from my failure to depart, I see the scars and the marks from the sparks in the dark like the bites from a dog with no bark. Standing still on this spinning sphere looking back in retrospect as the cloudiness clears, all the years and the tears and the beers That have all led me here. God's my only fear he is the maker And I am the made, So in my cave I am a slave to the shade Which comes in waves, And the craves They can last for days from the cradle to the grave, I will be brave until I am slayed and where I am laid I guess is where I will probably stay, But the day that my life is lost my soul will hopefully still be able to be saved. Going down like a fly in a flame, I am in need of a change, The dope in the syringe Almost always kills most of the time And also the will to feel the pain, I need an end to this game, Because every day is exactly the same, and I cannot pass the blame Because I need to own it like my name. Life is a gift you only get one shot, So I am gonna ride this until the wheels fall off, until my eyes close shut and I breathe my last cough. Like telekinesis-osmosis my premeditated prognosis is self medicated diagnosis to a disease thats so atrocious. No doctor fees, just down this slippery slope was once a seed inside of me is now a tree with descending leaves that will just not leave. The roots go deep inside of me, seemingly where my eyez can't see, unfortunately for me I broke the key, the key that unlocks the the remedy that is the enemy, that is inside of me, that I can not free, that I have become to be, Please pray for me, that this will flee, It seems as if everybody has turned on me, But what has really gotten into me, will be the end of me. I end each day and every single day the same way I start, I got a lot on my heart, my mind is falling apart from my failure to depart, and when all is said and done, it never ends how it starts.