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Same Way That It Starts

It ends how it starts

I end each day the same way I start, 
every day that I start 
I got a lot on my heart 
and my mind fell apart 
from my failure to depart, 
I see the scars and the marks 
from the sparks in the dark 
like the bites from a dog with no bark.
Standing still on this spinning sphere
looking back in retrospect 
as the cloudiness clears, 
all the years and the tears and the beers
That have all led me here.
God's my only fear 
he is the maker 
And I am the made, 
So in my cave 
I am a slave 
to the shade 
Which comes in waves,
And the craves
They can last for days 
from the cradle 
to the grave,
I will be brave 
until I am slayed 
and where I am laid 
I guess is where I will probably stay,
But the day that my life is lost 
my soul will hopefully 
still be able to be saved.
Going down like a fly in a flame, 
I am in need of a change, 
The dope in the syringe 
Almost always kills most of the time 
And also the will to feel the pain, 
I need an end to this game, 
Because every day is exactly the same, 
and I cannot pass the blame
Because I need to own it like my name.
Life is a gift 
you only get one shot, 
So I am gonna ride this 
until the wheels fall off, 
until my eyes close shut 
and I breathe my last cough.
Like telekinesis-osmosis 
my premeditated prognosis 
is self medicated diagnosis 
to a disease thats so atrocious.
No doctor fees, 
just down this slippery slope 
was once a seed inside of me 
is now a tree with descending leaves 
that will just not leave.
The roots go deep inside of me,
seemingly where my eyez can't see,
unfortunately for me I broke the key,
the key that unlocks the the remedy
that is the enemy, 
that is inside of me,
that I can not free,
that I have become to be,
Please pray for me, 
that this will flee,
It seems as if everybody has turned on me, 
But what has really gotten into me,
will be the end of me.
I end each day and every single day
the same way I start,
I got a lot on my heart, 
my mind is falling apart 
from my failure to depart, 
and when all is said and done, 
it never ends how it starts.

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