Sailing Through My Heart

I’m sailing through my heart watching memories go by and watching my dreams turn to dust as I hold all the pain inside The tears I cry start to flow like water through my heart it’s as if everything is breaking now that we’re apart At first, I see a vision of the first time I saw your face the next I see us together in our special place It hurts to see these visions, but they are just reminders of the past painful memories of why our love couldn’t last I reach out to touch you, but I know what I’m seeing isn’t real my heart is just making me see what I can never again feel I want to drown myself in the tears I have cried because seeing a vision of you tells me I lost a part of my life I lost a part inside of me that made me feel love a precious gift which was given to us from above As I sail on through my heart, I know the painful visions are near because from the corner of my eye I shed a single tear I see us together for the very last time I see us letting go of one another and saying sorrowfully goodbye As I sail on the water gets too deep and I know I’m in the center of my heart where my love for you I keep A wall surrounds this part to hold only you inside and to keep pain from coming in and taking away what is left of my pride In this part of my heart my deepest dreams are waiting to come true along with all my love that I once gave to you I can’t stand the pain inside, so I simply sail on to something new I know I can’t go back there I’ll only feel more pain if I do I’ll never let you go because you’re deep within my soul you’re the part of my heart which makes my life whole Without you it is so hard to go on, but you’ll always be deep in my heart where you belong It has been a while since I have visited this place inside my heart I try to get through this as best as I can by trying to believe we’re apart But I can’t make myself feel that you’re not here with me because deep inside I know you are emotionally Whenever I want to feel you and feel your love for me, I sail through my heart to the part that holds you and will for eternity I close my eyes when I go by the memories of the past because some are too painful for me still even though your love for me didn’t last As I go on, I see a split up ahead and to a broken heart is where this ocean of tears has been led I’m trying to sink these memories and realize you’re gone but for some reason I can’t my heart keeps trying to hold on How much pain can my heart take it’s already been broken in two I just can’t sail away from all my dreams and the love I still feel for you If I am living my heart will forever cry over you, because you took away your love that seemed to be so true I still have the love you gave to me deep inside my heart it was something you couldn’t take away just because we had to part The love you gave to me is entwined with the love I feel for you forever locked away in my heart it will always be true I know I must sail on through my heart to hope of finding someone new, but I’ll never let go of the love I feel for you That love is so pure and can only be given to one soul the other part of me which is you that makes my life whole My dreams are to remain in my heart along with the tears and painful memories but the part that no one can visit is where there inside is still you and me If I should love again, I know I could never feel this way because I know in my heart, you’re the one I‘ll always love and that is all I can say I promise to you my love no one shall ever take away what I feel for you deep inside and I know I’ll never be lonely because I have you in my heart to sail with me forever by my side. This poem is from book titled Still Here Waiting available on Amazon and Kindle. My pen name is Amanda Carroll Kinzer